My life has been kinda confusing lately. Or rather, I realise that I get so annoyed so easily nowadays. I'm annoyed at myself. I keep thinking of a guy whom I don't even want/intend to have feelings for. Screw you, emotions. Honestly, I don't even know if I'll ever get into a serious relationship with anyone. I'm only 18 but every guy I've had feelings for...just weren't up to my expectations. PICKY BITCH HUH. The thought of being in one is frightening. I couldn't even commit to my past relationships because I was afraid of what people would say and how their comments would affect me. I should probably start caring less about what people think of me but it's not that easy. Been a walking insecure machine since the day I was born. I mean, who the hell cares about what strangers think of them? ME. Speaking of relationships, I think I always fall for the wrong guys. Seriously. I wish I could just turn off my emotions til I'm old and wise enough to control it. At the same time, I really want someone to hug me and tell me that they'll be there for me at all times. I don't know anymore. Maybe I just need to know that someone cares, as cliche as it may sound.